.. in memories of dua yee poh ..

It’s been 3 months since my last blog. I hope no one reads this. This’ supposed to be for my personal consumption and memories. Dua yee poh (my grams second sister) passed away this morning.

I'm devastated. Not exactly caused by her passing on, but on my grams behalf. She was just so excited last week when she got back (from penang after visiting) telling me how dua yee poh was getting better and that her swells (due to cancer) were going down. I mean. It’s more of a cancer relapse.

My gram has been taking trips to Penang alot recently to take care of her sister. And believe me, my grams has a heart of gold. She turns 80 next years and yet she's still so giving. Sigh. Believe me, when i say giving, i mean she really gives in to everything. All my wants and needs too. I know i can get effing spoilt at times.

She’s heaven's cook! She cooks up storms and makes us all fat. LITERALLY. And you know what actually breaks my heart most? My gram was going back to Penang to visit dua yee poh tomorrow. To make sure she was doing okay. And my grams promised that she'd be back on the 16th of September because my birthday was on the 18th and she said she wouldn't miss it for anything. And i'm like. Cool!

But now. I dont feel like there's a celebration anymore. I really feel like crying. You know, i've never seen my grams upset before. That day, i took her out for lunch and we were talking about everything (we can actually talk abt everything! including boys).

Well, then we talked abt dua yee poh. And she almost teared. I know she was holding back her tears when she was talking about it. I mean. I've never seen her like that before. And seeing that made my heart break and i just wanted to cry infront of her. I know sometimes i take my grams for granted, but believe me, i love her with every breath of my life and i wouldn't know what to do without her. *Choi. Touch wood. She’s the most amazing grams.

I mean, yeah she does have her occasional crazy-out-of-the-world tempers but still. Nothing and no one can compare to her.

Here’s a random pic of my grams and i at one of our crazy lunch outings (now that i can drive). She’s more vain than i am! She goes "eh lemme see the picture!" then she goes "aiyah! Take one more! My eyes so small!" haha.

Mama, i love you, i do. You are the best!



grams i love you.
dua yee poh, you will forever be in our memories
you were cheerful and different (from si yee poh)
you were kind.
you will always be loved.

“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.”

you never let anything die while you were alive and you made the most out of life while you could.

may you rest in peace.

with love
, Michelle.

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